I had a suspicion that something was up when the (thug voice) OB (end thug voice) called and wanted to see The Witch. Today we found out that the pregnancy is in the tube and will have 2b terminated. The Witch was devistated. I took time out of my busy schedule a few hours ago to grieve myself. Crack hoes, (for which I am one, right?) get to have children all of the time and have them supported by the federal government. Our child was wanted and would be loved and taken care of by The Witch and I. This is $ucked up. This is another moment when I wish I was typical so I could do something else besides be sad.

I had to take "The Witch" to the hospital today to end the pregnancy in her tube. The procedure was quick, about an hour. What followed was really $ucked up. The doctor comes out and describes the procedure (OK) and its success and then proceeds to show me photos of her inner organs, like I really needed to see this. (Not OK) Now, imagine.. Your sad enough that the pregnancy is over, and then to see pictures of them snipping it out? Its kind of messed up in a sinister yet evil way.

The crisis is over and "The Witch" is recovering. Its been a rough couple of days but I have had the love and support of my friends for which I am thankful. The pictures still haunt me. I am ready to move on and foreward. I wonder if she is ready to do so herself..

This is stupid. Christany is reading the blog and is still talking to me and I keep talking to her whenever The Witchs back is turned. All I want is to get that luscious booty of hers. There wont be any sex with The Witch for some time to come. This is wrong but I cant help myself. Damn. The worse thing though is that she is really into me. Today Christany told me that she does not love me. I asked her why would you call me to tell me you don't love me. She said it was because she felt she was too attached already. I asked her who was she trying to convince? Her or me.

I am going to meet Christany. I am well, pensive about this. (START EMAIL)Hey you, I was just thinking about you. Wanted to say hi. See you later tonight. Hope youre having a great day. Tiff

It seems that Christany seems to be figuring out that we arent supposed to be seeing each other. At this point I don't care. I want her, sexually and perhaps otherwise. However my hopes may be dashed with this email. (START EMAIL)Hey, Youve reminded me that this is not supposed to be happening. Meaning, I shouldnt expect anything from you. So, me questioning you regarding no contact last evening is something I should apologize for. Im sorry. Bachelor, Im not sure whats going on here, and Im not doing any good at ignoring it, or waiting it out. It would be too risky. I feel like were avoiding a sensitive topic, that probably deserves our attention. Youll have to let me know what you think, and soon. Im trying very hard to resist putting much thought into it, and as the underlying message in this email indicates, Im not doing to great of a job. We should talk. Tiff

Last night I decided to relaunch the bachelorblog on its own site. Details at 11. In the meantime I had dinner+movie with "The Witch" and her daughter. It was a pleasant evening. The more time goes by the more this feels right..

Well it looks like "The Witch" is acting more like "The Bitch" today. I am not sure whats got her in such a foul mood and, frankly I dont care. So I am taking the day off 2c what kind of trouble I can get into today...

You ever have one of those days where you realize that for the past couple of weeks you are screwing up? I had one of those days yesterday. I just found out about a string of incidents that were minor but when added up, make me look like a heel. So it looks like I have some apologizing/making up 2 do. Crap. She ("The Witch") let me have it and, she was right. For now all seems 2b forgiven. I told her tht actions speak louder than words so I was not going to promise a turnaround overnight. I do however realize now that I need 2b a little more considerate of her feelings, especially with the post partum thing going on right now.